DON'T MAKE THE MISTAKE OF THINKING YOU DON'T NEED ANYBODY

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At a young age my parents split. I didn't really have a grasp of what was going on. At the same time, my older sister moved out of the house and as a result, I was alone in my home all the time. I really didn't mind though because I've always been more of an introvert and someone who spends a lot of time in their own head. It felt natural to just be with myself and do things on my own. 

Time went on I started telling myself that I didn’t need anybody.

I got older and I started to put the pieces together on how my family fell apart. I always acted like it didn't bother me but it did, especially when I went to my friends houses and I saw how close and happy they were together. They would accept me with open arms and I felt a stronger bond with them than I ever did with my own family. I quickly accepted the fact that I couldn't depend on my family. 

This idea that I don’t need anybody became stronger.

I graduated college and joined the rest of corporate America. I ran into real life with the mentality that I'm on my own. Seeing that I got this far without the support of a family made me very independent and created a thick skin.

I continued to tell myself that I didn’t need anybody.

But as of the last couple years something in me has changed. I've started to experience how good strong relationships can feel. I discovered that I've always yearned for support because I felt like I didn't have it growing up. Now I want to be there for everyone I care about because I now know how good it feels. I desire to make more connections with people. I've realized that there will never be a time in my life when I can say I did it all on my own. Everyone's life is an accumulation of experiences and lessons we've learned from other people. The people of your past shape you to who you are today and who you become in the future. I’m no longer bitter in regards to how my family raised me. Instead I’m so grateful for the lessons they taught me. I wouldn’t want it any other way.